Osho

Meditation says, 'Just watch the mind and you are out. Your being inside the mind is your fallacious idea. Once you stop the mind functioning, suddenly the fallacious idea will disappear and you will find you are out in the open. Then the whole sky is available to you -- your freedom, your eternal life, this vast beautiful existence is always available to you, to shower you with all kinds of blessings. Osho

This quote made me realize that I need some alone, self reflecting time. This whole journey of mine has been quite chaotic. Being in this foreign country with all new people and places to explore has made me feel like an outsider the whole time, not really sure where I fit in in this program, in this country, in this world.. This has pushed me out of my comfort zone and thrown me onto a scary, exciting roller coaster with nobody there to hold my hand along the way. I have had plenty of ups, and certainly plenty of downs, but I haven't felt "centered" in a long time. I keep waiting for a closure of all these emotions, the time where I'm finally reflecting and realizing what I've learned and where this excursion has taken me. I know it will come some time in the future, but as of now, I feel like a wanderer. I know that, "Not all who wander are lost" , and most of the time it's amazing just doing my thing here without knowing  where this is all taking me because I know this "gap year" is temporary and that my routine life starts later. Sometimes though I don't know what I should be doing to be productive in this year and gain as much as I possibly can. I could definitely use some meditation time to help me. And bluegrass.
 inspires me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGMabBGydC0&feature=player_embedded#at=16